3 Card New Year's Day Spread/Birthday Blues

 

From the Tarot Del Toro Deck, a simple New Year's Day 3 card spread, this was pulled as the basic Past/Present/Future. These cards are gorgeous! The art is astounding. I also realized that one of my other passions, even fandoms is represented, in one of these pics, cross stitching, and specifically stitching the amazing designs of Screaming Heart Designs. Find her on Etsy if you need patterns, I'm a little obsessed. That one in the image is the last of the Four Squares of the Apocalypse that I have to finish, Famine. I'm mostly done, then I'll finish them for framing and write about them.

In the past position is the King of Cups, or Goblets in this deck. He is emotional maturity, stability, mastery of a skill, being in control, success in learning. He's a leader that relies on logic, and making sure everything is taken care of. Thinking things through. Today, in the past position, he represents that the stability has been shaken, and you may feel like you are slipping from what you have achieved, you may be feeling a little off kilter, or full on crazy pants.The art on this card features the vampire from The Strain. Maybe you were on top of your game, and are feeling a little...drained? (Waka, waka, waka!)

In the present, we have the Knight of Discs (pentacles). This is hard work, and planning for the long term. This knight is not getting to where he's going quickly, necessarily, but he's considered all of the possibilities, made a plan, and put it into motion. He takes responsibility for his actions, learns, and uses that knowledge to reach his goals. Maybe a mistake has been made, a hard lesson that has caused you to reassess, in the now. It may seem impossible, but make lists, make plans, do the work and don't wait and hope. And do it now, not tomorrow. This card art features medieval style version of Striker Eureka fighting the Kaiju Knifehead, both from Pacific Rim. Never thought I'd type  Medieval and Kaiju in the same sentence...

In the future, Strength. Which represents, well, strength. Traditional decks show a woman calmly holding open the jaws of an adult lion. Strength is not just physical, it is emotional fortitude, and compassion, and knowing what is right, and doing that. Unstoppable will, and energy. Go read the poem Invictus, this is that. This card art features Mr. Wink, from Hellboy II, with his steel arm.

So, things were going well and stable, and were maybe knocked askew, causing some self doubt. Planning, knowing what you want, and working towards it, calmly and without panic is the course. Inconquerability is the result. Put that plan and drive to use, and overcome, and achieve.

Which is all true, without these cards, as well.

I hate New Year's Eve. Last year was the only notable great one I've ever had. I am almost always alone, and have generally just kept my normal sleeps time in recent years. But Monday is my birthday, so there is that. Frequently, when I was in school, my birthday was the day classes resumed. Yay. I usually take it off, but I didn't this year. I guess I'm not really doing anything for my birthday, at all. I did order myself a tiny cake. Might make tacos. Monday, I'll work and then do a mental health thing, maybe eat some drive through. I love my birthday, my mom always made a point to make it special, because it's so close to Christmas and New Year's. Combo gifts weren't allowed, because you wouldn't do that for someone who's birthday was in any other month, so it didn't happen for the girl born on the 10th day of Christmas. I'm pretty sad about it, but it's hard to sound like an adult and explain that to people, you know? Especially when you will be halfway to 94. But I can't really stamp my feet and ask for gifts and attention. Can I?

New beginnings. Use them wisely.